39 weeks! Lots of new updates...

39 weeks today! I have lots of new updates to fill you in on since I posted last week. When I went and saw my doc for my 38 week check-up, I was 2cm and 50% effaced. Pretty good for 38 weeks but something I could definitely still walk around at for awhile if the baby just wasn't ready. At least I know my body was progressing and doing something though! So Mark was with me and started to explain to her his fears that Lucy will decide to come the ONE day that she absolutely can't (this Thursday, the 27th) due to his *big* test. She sympathized with him because she said her ex-husband actually sat for his professional engineering license when she was pregnant with her daughter so she totally understood. She told me she would accommodate us and would go ahead and induce on Friday (10/21). At first I was thinking "heck yea!" but then instantly started worrying and something just didn't feel right about it, especially with me still only being 39 weeks. But then I figured I obviously know my doctor wouldn't put us in a horrible situation if she didn't feel like she, or me, was ready and in all honesty, it would be perfect timing with Mark's test and all.

So fast forward to this past Friday... we get up bright and early, dog is at the kennel, bags are completely packed and we head to the hospital at 7am. They finally started me on Pitocin at 8:30 and after 5 hours of Pitocin and upping it every 30 min. and with normal 2-3 min. apart contractions, I was STILL at 2cm and 50% effaced. Talk about a stubborn baby! My doctor was willing to break my water for me but I had to make that decision whether I wanted her to or not because if she went ahead and broke my water then I was there to stay and definitely having this baby that day one way or another. The selfish part of me was telling myself to just go ahead and break my water and let's have her but my head and gut were telling me to leave and give it some time. If she isn't ready, she just isn't ready! I was so scared that if she broke my water that I still wouldn't progress past 2cm and would have to end up with a c-section. As much as I don't want a c-section, I've come to terms that if I go into labor on my own and something happens were it's necessary or demanded, then so be it, but if I end up with a c-section because of me being anxious and trying to force this baby out, I would always kick myself.

Anyway, so we ended up leaving the hospital around 2pm. My doctor suggested I could come back on Sunday (today) and get some gel that will help "ripen me up" and then we could try again for an induction on Monday morning. Mark and I thought long and hard about it and decided to still go in on Sunday and talk to my doctor about it. So after a long talk with my doctor this morning, we decided to pass on the gel and the induction. As much as we are both ready for her, we want her to come when she's ready and let nature take it's course. I just feel like it would be bad karma if I forced it and something happened. I would always blame myself! So basically my baby girl is just not ready to meet everyone yet.. which is fine! I'll let her pick her own birthday and let her decide when she is ready. :) (Side note: This morning I was STILL 2cm, 50% effaced!)

So basically that's everything going on with us. Her due date is exactly one week from today so it's getting closer. We're hoping something will happen soon (well at any time except Thursday!) because we sure are ready. This week will just include lots of long walks! I'm having little contractions here and there but mainly I'm just getting the pelvic pain and the tailbone pain (this is a new one but supposedly a sign of early labor).

So that's it! We're just anxiously waiting for something to happen and killing time in the meantime. Sorry I don't have a pic this week. My camera is still packed up in the car from the hospital and I'm way too lazy to get it and post pics, haha. If anything does happen before next Sunday I will definitely get my last belly shot before having her! Well if anything else changes in the meantime I'll be back. Keep your fingers crossed for us!!!